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Monday, November 28, 2011, 20:16
It has been such a long time for me to blog.Today post will be a wordy post, so if you don't like it, just leave my blog.
I dont know how to pin my thoughts into words but I'll try my best.
14 Sep 2011, I met HIM.
Someone who was important to me that time.
I met him with one of his friend for lunch before work starts.
He wasn't the handsome guy which girls will like;
But why bother about how he looks?
The first meal we had is Long John Silver.
And I was having a bad diarrhoea and he insist that I should have mine dinner.
But in the end, I just ate one slice of fish and pass to his friend.
He make the first step to hold on to my hand, and I was too blur to realize;
And I even ask him why his hand moving towards my hand.
The second time, he tried again, and I realize what he want.
Both of our hands are lock together after that.
I was somehow shy but feel very happy.
I couldn't describe the feelings I had that day:>
I knew all along I was smiling sweetly inside my heart, because I found HIM.
And we walk from LJS to mine clinic.
Before he left, he kiss me on mine cheeks, it was so sweet.
But that was all in the past.
We had broke off because I am not suitable for him.
But I still had feelings for him even though we broke up.
Somehow I hope that we will get back together, but I knew it was impossible.
Maybe all along it was mine own thinking and thoughts.
Maybe I was a big fool in this love game.
I don't know whether his feelings for me are true.
I have many doubts but I still love him.
I guess I really love HIM too much.
I couldn't control myself for not falling in love with him even though he told me the truth.
Am I been a fool for holding on to a r/s that will not be back with me?
HE affects my mood, my thought and everything.
How am I going to forget HIM?!?!
I should be angry with him for lying to me about so many things.
But I did not.
This is not me at all, I hate liars and I hate them when they lie to me.
But why this time round, I can forgive him???!!!
I don't understand myself anymore :'(
I am always worry about him him him!
Nobody but him, but I told myself not to bother too much.
Brain and heart are not communicating well enough.
And the bad news is , HE is going to ROM next month.
I totally break down when I heard the news.
I told his close friends how I feel.
I dont wisht to be the 3rd party in a r/s.
I could only give him my blessing and wishes.
Be normal infront of him and his friends.
My heart was bleeding badly :'(
Can anyone tell me how to stop a wound bleeding?
I just want to drink drank drunk.
I am making all my friends worried about me.
I need to forget all the memories but I know it will take years.
By typing out all this, I am crying in my heart but not on the outside.
My heart was aching even badly, my wound getting deeper and bigger.
I need to find ways to stop it.
For now, I will lock up my heart to prevent it from being hurt again.
I will not go into any r/s even if I meet some better guys out there.
I vow to myself this and I know I can do it for sure.
I found this on facebook about JULY BABY CHARACTER:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
SO TRUE :)
That all for today post.
LASTLY, I LOVE YOU.
I HOPE YOU WILL BE HAPPY AND HOPE YOU WILL HAVE A HAPPY MARRIAGE.
LOVE HER, TREASURE HER, CONTROL YOUR TEMPER:)
GIVE IN TO HER AND LASTLY DON'T TAKE HER FOR GRANTED.
SHE IS REALLY BETTER THAN ME, TC ATPA
Hoping it will come true.